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Friday, May 6, 2016

Lydia Elise: 3-4 Years

Four years old! There aren't enough words in the world to express how much this girl is loved. It's a frequent occasion that I will watch her doing something she just learned, or listen to her saying something so sweet, and my heart fills with such an abundance of love that it feels like it's going to burst. (I know that sounds ridiculous - but this girl... she honestly makes my heart burst.) I love her so much. She's kind, she knows what she wants, she tells me how she feels, she loves her little brother, she dresses herself and she's really good at talking her way into (or out of) something. She's the best.

Official Stats: 
Weight: 36.4 lbs (62%)
Height: 39.5 in (45%)
Size 4T pants & 5T shirts (for the length). Size 7 shoes. 


I have a thousand things to say about this girl, but I didn't write nearly enough down throughout the year (what happened to my 3.5 post? I don't know...) so most of it is recent memories accurate of her right now. But when I look back at pictures of the newly-three Lydia, it just makes me smile. Every day I can see more and more the beautiful woman that she will become. She looks so big to me right now, but I know that there will be a day that she will look back at these pictures and we will talk about how darling she was when she was four. I only hope that she will know then, as much as now, how much she is loved. 

Some things I want to remember: 
--She's really good at sharing, specifically sharing her food. Even if she only has a couple pieces of candy, she will share with you if you ask - and even a lot of times that you don't ask. 
--She really likes music and singing. We got a CD player and she loves to switch her music CDs in and out. She can sing the songs along with the music and loves it all. 
--Her new favorite show is Paw Patrol. It's a show about little dogs (pups) that work together in a team to save the day. It's actually pretty cute - and they have a good mix between boy and girl pups and I like that. Henry is the one that started watching it and talking about it and Lydia jumped on that bandwagon so fast. Now she legitimately loves it. 
--She picks out her clothes every day. Every day. The only way I can get her to wear something I want her to wear is to give her two options to pick from, then recommend the one that I don't want - and hope that she picks the one that I want. This is literally the only way that I can get her into something I want her to wear. Oh, and bribery. That works sometimes, too. Most of the time though - I just let her pick what she wants. I think it's good for her to be independent and have a say in what she is wearing, so I only fight the battle when it really matters to me. 
--Other people talk about their "three-nager", and I've never really felt that way. I mean, being three comes with a lot of new (and big) emotions and it's not always easy to handle that. But she's not bratty or sassy. She's really kind and has a huge heart. We've been working on using our words (both of us) and she's getting better and she's eternally patient with me. 
--You know when she's really excited about something because she shouts "Yay-hoo!" That's reserved for when she's particularly thrilled about something. 
--Sometimes during a conversation she'll ask a question then say, "Oh, I got confused." It's pronounced really well, but it's the sweetest voice "confuuused." 
--For a while she was telling everyone that we were going to have three new babies. People would always look at me with wide eyes, and finally I realized that instead of jumping in with embarrassment, all I needed to do was prompt her to tell them what she was going to name them. "Their names are going to be Lydia, and Austin, and Mommy!" People laughed, and it was enough to explain that she was just being silly. 
--She says "Danks Mom" over the sweetest things. Making her lunch. Helping her get her coat on. Getting her a tissue. It makes me want to do all the nice things in the world for her just to hear those sweet sweet words of appreciation.
--She loves quarters. If I want to bribe her to do something, I usually just have to offer a quarter as a reward. She helps me put her laundry away, wipes down the bathtub, or other random chores I need help with at the moment. Most of the time she carries it around and then loses it/forgets about it - so I don't actually end up paying so much money because I reuse the quarters, but I just have to make sure that I have one in the car for when we are at the store and she says, "Oh no! Mom! I forgot my quarter at home!" And I can pull it out of my pocket like the hero of the day and let her buy some candy out of the machines at the front of the store. (Her favorites are the candy dog-bones. She experimented with a gumball once or twice, but she just really likes those candy bones.)
--As she's gotten older she's started to hate having her hair done. After much tears and screaming every single day - we gave her a super short bob and that worked like a charm. We just had to comb through it, but not much of anything else. Now that it's getting longer I've started putting a rubber band at the front for her bangs and it's starting to be a battle again. The other day she asked if we could cut it again so that we only had to "comb it" not "do it". It actually works pretty well, in that I don't make her do her hair most days and then on the days that I really want it to look special I'm mostly able to convince her to let me do it. (Give and take, right?) 
--She can be incredibly stubborn, just wanting to get it done herself. But she's also incredibly kind and thoughtful. I'm grateful to be raising a daughter like her. 
--When you ask her what her favorite color is she says "All the colors!" Which is pretty true. 
----Asks Austin "Do you want to come play?" 
--Sometimes she gets upset and has figured out that she just needs some alone time before she can feel better. She storms off into the front room saying "I just want to be alone." And after a while of cooling down, she comes back happy to play again. It seems to work well to give her her space so she can work through the emotions.
--She loves to play "chase the monster" with anyone, but especially her Daddy. The game consists of chasing her around the main level of our home (into the living room, around the coffee table, back to the family room, into the kitchen, around the island, and repeat). I love that it's called "chase the monster" because you aren't chasing a monster, you are the monster who is chasing Lydia. She recently the game has been upgraded and she carries a bucket of balls and throws them behind her as a distraction and you have to find them/catch them before you can keep chasing her. Her rules.
--She comes into Austin's room at night when we are putting him to bed and sings him a lullaby. It's sweet. 

--She has the ability to make me more frustrated than anyone or anything else in the world. She also has the ability to make my heart feel like it's going to burst with love at any given second. Those two things might also happen only minutes apart from each other. But with all the frustration, I would never trade it - not one second of it - because of how much better my life is with her in it.


Some pictures of Lydia from this past year: 

















Happy Birthday Lydia-girl. Four years old is going to be great. 

(Update: Almost as soon as her birthday was over, she's started telling people that she's "almost five". And talks about being five all the time. Slow down sweet girl! I want to savor this year before jumping to the next. (But really, it's so sweet and funny.) 

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

Insta-Tuesday {5.3.16}

Insta-April


{4.8.16}
insta-david
Managed to learn how to navigate the skywalks in Minneapolis and enjoyed learning the new software that we are going to train the rest of the firm on. Now I'm super excited to get home to my family tonight. #msptoslc #missthem#noworkonsaturday

{4.12.16}
Outside! We can't get enough of this sun. #theycryeverytimewegoinside

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This is happening right now! Project Fi, here we come. So excited!#lastblurryinstaphotofrommyoldphone#soexcitedformynewphoneandnewcamera

{4.21.16}
My mom came to spend the last couple of days with us and I loved every second! She brought my parents (giant) truck so that David and I could go pick up a bunk bed from IKEA for Lydia's birthday. (Lydia is sooooo excited. She's sure she's getting a bunk bed because she asked for one for Christmas and didn't get it. So her last hope is her birthday!) I wish my mom could live next door. I didn't want her to leave. I've been blessed with an amazing mother who taught me to love others, to be confident of myself and my abilities, and to keep my head on straight. I'm more and more grateful every day for the amazing woman and example of motherhood that she is. Oh and she brought the bracelet kit we gave her for Christmas so we could make matching bracelets with Lydia, because she's as awesome of a grandma as she is a mom. 


{4.22.16}
This morning as we were eating breakfast, Lydia shouted, "Look! There's a camel outside on the road, right there." I wasn't sure what she was talking about, but looked out and saw a mama deer walking right past our back fence! I said, "Oh! It's a deer, how neat!" And she said, "Yes, a deer!" (So, some slight animal confusion but, so funny and cute.) We watched her eat some sagebrush, then saw her baby deer following her down the dirt path. I snapped the picture of the mom after the baby walked away out of sight. The kids loved it.#ihopetheyfindsomewheresafetogo

{4.22.16}
Just finished delivering these fun baby shower announcements this morning. I delivered some last night, and this morning realized that there was a typo. After much stress, debating whether to go reprint them before delivering the rest, I decided to let go of the worry and just let it be okay. My old perfectionist self would never have let something like that slide. I still feel a little dumb about it, but I'm so glad I didn't spend two hours trying to reprint and restuff them. Also, if you know Gabby and didn't get an invite- let me know! I'd love you to come. #boyohboy#wearegoingtohavecrepes#unlessichangemymind#canyouspotthetypo?

{4.23.16}
shanteleliseThis happened today! You're looking at the proud owners of a new (to us) mini-van. #joiningtheminivanclub Huge shout out to @amypeaden1 for watching our kids for SO long while we were gone. #awesomeauntamy


insta-david - timeline takeover!
{5.1.16}
It has been a crazy week and a half. I have worked a ton, be we have also had a bunch of other fun stuff going on. So without further ado, this is my first official Instagram timeline takeover. Last Saturday we had a great time. Lydia's loved swinging on this wheel at the museum.

{5.1.16}
We went to test drive cars for a new commuter car for me and decided to look at vans as well since we were planning to buy a minivan soon as well.

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We drove this and it was perfect! Except it was about $2,000 more than we wanted to spend. After telling them it was too much they dropped their price $400 and then we put on our coats to leave and they dropped it another $1,200. That was close enough for us and we bought this 2014 Chrysler Town and country. #minivanmom #minivandad

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Special shout out to my sister who came down and hung out with us and watched our kids while we did test drives. Even bigger thanks since she watched extra long while we negotiated and signed paperwork. This is her and Austin on an awesome trolley ride.


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We went back to the museum this weekend and Lydia loved this awesome jungle gym.
(shantel update: David took the kids to the museum while I hosted a baby shower at our house. The kids loved it and I was so grateful that they were out having fun and not underfoot! 

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Also, she is awesome at climbing and made it all the way to the top. Look, no hands!

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Austin also had a great time. I had quite the rock collection by the time we were done.

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With a baby shower party Shantel threw in the morning and Lydia's birthday party in the afternoon there was a lot of party prep going on. The best was watching Lydia with Shantel helping to decorate her gummy bear cake. She was so focused and did a great job with the frosting.


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Also Lydia had a great birthday party.

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And got a new bike.

Stories from the Ranch: Ramon and Verla Engaged (Also May 3rd = Grandma's Birthday)

Today is my Grandma Walker's birthday. This Saturday we are heading up to Wyoming for the annual branding extravaganza and it feels so surreal that Grandma won't be there. I have a birthday card paper clipped into my planner with a note on last Thursday to mail it to Grandma. Both my Grandma Walker and my Grandma Knowles send cards for each and every birthday and this year I got cards for all of my grandparents to send to them for their birthdays. When I came across the card - it was a sad reminder that she's really not here anymore. I hope that she's doing something wonderful on her birthday and that she can feel the love that we have for her.

I regret very, very little about the time that I spent visiting with and helping my grandma over the past year. But the one thing that I do regret was not asking her more questions (or recording the answers to the questions I did have). We talked a lot, but I was always wary of coming across like "Grandma- please tell me about this because you won't be here to tell me about it soon." It felt weird and forced. But now I wish I had tried harder to find ways to ask questions that didn't feel forced because I feel the weight of all the lost stories and memories.

However, one of my favorite stories that I heard my grandma tell was how she met my grandpa and how they got engaged. I've never written it down, although I've kept the notes I took on a spare napkin in my scriptures until I had the time to write it down. Here it is:

Stories from the Ranch: Ramon and Verla Meet and Get Engaged

Verla (Grandma) was working at the Little America as a waitress in the restaurant while on break from BYU. Ramon (Grandpa) had recently returned from serving in the army and was also at Little America working as a car mechanic. They met when Grandpa came into the restaurant to eat and started talking to her.  They kept talking on and off whenever he would come in to get something to eat. Then Grandpa asked her to attend the Thanksgiving Dance with him. They went to the dance and had a great time and they started spending more time together.

One morning, Ramon asked Verla if she wanted to go "to town", meaning driving the 2.5 hours to Ogden, with him because he had some things he needed to pick up. They had both just gotten off a graveyard shift, but of course she said yes. He dropped her off at some stores in Odgen and she had a nice time walking around and doing a little shopping of her own. He picked her up, and they spent some time together before heading back home. As they were coming out of the mouth of Weber Canyon, Grandpa leaned over, opened the jockey box, and said "Here, open this." Inside was a ring box! Immediately Grandma started yelling with happiness. She grabbed the box, looked at the ring, and as Grandpa kept driving down the road she was hugging and kissing him.

Grandma had promised her parents that she would go back to school, so she did for one quarter. But she couldn't stand to be away, so she returned home and married Ellis Ramon Walker on June 7, 1957 in the Salt Lake LDS Temple.

Ramon had saved up enough money to buy a little white house on a plot of land that he wanted to ranch and they moved there as soon as they were married. They lived there until Grandpa built a new red-brick house (with indoor plumbing) right next door. For the rest of their lives, they called this little plot of land their home.

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I think that my grandparents marriage is a perfect example of why marriage and that family relationship is so important. They went through hard times. Temporal/physical hard times: No indoor plumbing when they first got married, the hard work that comes with working in the mines and running a ranch, raising four kids, helping with aging parents. They also went through spiritual hard times. I know that my grandparents relationship wasn't always sunny and roses and that they struggled quite a bit at times. But they didn't give up. They stuck through the thick and the thin, and they lived a good life and left an incredible legacy. I just think - what if my grandparents had given up and separated. Who would have taken care of my grandmother when she needed so much love and attention? The fact that my grandfather was there and that he loved her so much speaks a million times over how important their relationship was. Their lives weren't always easy - but together they created the most beautiful life and legacy.